I am struggling.
I find myself, zoning out into nothing.
Time passes without me realizing it.
Everything seems meaningless.
My life has started to lose its color.
Familiar faces seems so distant, unrecognizable.

This, this was unplanned, I never thought this could happen.
I never thought I could sink so low.
Negative thoughts pays me a visit every now and then.
Oddly, I have no desire to live nor to die.
Probably because no one knows if death is better.


All I feel is self-pity.
When will I wake up from this nightmare ?