Happiness' sadness

Thoughts that linger about my mind

1) Moving on from love is possible but forgetting is not.

If you have love with sincerity, no matter why the relationship ended, there will also be a void in you heart.
Love is something that you give and receive, it cannot be bought with money nor can it be stolen.
Fond memories, the warm feeling you once had.
Sorrow,it still aches sometimes.


2) Work hard and you will still fail
Work hard for your future and one day you will succeed.
It's an illusion, chasing your own shadow.
Your perspective of the world narrows and you focus on how to succeed on your own.
Forgetting that, succeed is sweeter together than alone.
Not knowing that, being alone means that succeed is not achievable as you constantly fail to recognise it.
Always wanting more and demanding more.
Until, one day, you start spiraling downhill, you have lost your bearings.
Self criticizing as you are envious of the achievement of others.
Sometimes, life can be unfair or is it ?
Who knows ? What did the other person had to undergo to be where there are today ?
After all, we all want to be heard but no one wants to listen.


3) You can't be sad over something you never had (I wonder)

Sukidesu.

Unrequited love. It is impossible.
At times, guilt flows over me and I wonder if what I am doing is wrong.
I know it will never be but still should I stop being nice to her ?
Drawing lines doesn not work.
(Same concept as diets)
I have come to terms to a certain extend.
I wish her all the happiness in the world when the right person comes along, I will accept and welcome him.
Thou shalt not be an arse.
Feeling pain is better than being emotionless.
I wont stop either.
This I will keep until the right time comes.

Today is my last day for this chapter

We are not promised tomorrow.
At this exact moment, I feel at peace.
I have either lived a very bitter nor happy life.

Many people have touched me during my lifetime.
So left deeper marks than others.
Feelings of love, hurt and confusion.
They are all part of me.

Do not misunderstand me.
I am not leaving.
I am just commencing a new chapter.
In others words, I am no longer gripping onto the past.

So long, my life in Australia.
So long, the people in it.

It's been a decent ride.
Arigato.